I decided park day was out today. For several very good reasons. One of which being my present physical condition. However, I have managed to make us all yummy smoothies, bathe and dress us all, hand wash all my VS, wash the bed linens, read a chapter from Little House on the Prairie with the kids, teach some grammar lessons (I used dictionary.com until I think I wore it out), seasoned all of my new cast iron pieces, smoke up the house while doing it, browse the internet for dream RVs, irritate my monkey with how much I want to live in a camper, and now I am baking bread. It is only 2:30. I rock.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 26, 2002 at 02:34 PM
I am experiencing more technical difficulties. Yes, I know. I didn't think it was possible either. It would seem that what little they left me with is rebelling also. Today I got to experience having silver nitrate* applied directly to my cervix because my body has managed to find a new way to bleed in moderately disturbing quantities when it isn't supposed to. I am assuming that is what caused the horrible crampy feeling that left me pretty much yucky this afternoon. I know, your welcome for my sharing all of that.
*silver nitrate
n.
A poisonous colorless crystalline compound, AgNO3, that becomes grayish black when exposed to light in the presence of organic matter and is used in manufacturing photographic film, silvering mirrors, dyeing hair, plating silver, and in medicine as a cautery and antiseptic.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 25, 2002 at 06:21 PM
Sometimes you just have to step back and prioritize.
gw3nd0lyn: logan did math today and read the first chapter of My Father's Dragon to the girls
gw3nd0lyn: sometimes i forget that he does do stuff everyday
gw3nd0lyn: i have had my mind buried in books and curriculum and Anthroposophy crap for months. I am sick of it all.
eatonte: What EXACTLY does sick of it all mean?
gw3nd0lyn: Ima buy a camper and go trail walking and leaf picking and bug watching and playing in the sunshine and cooking s'mores and pineappleupsidedown cake in cast iron skillets and and and...
eatonte: hehe
gw3nd0lyn: and :P to all y'all
gw3nd0lyn: screw it. life is too short to worry about what color means what
gw3nd0lyn: be thankful you aren't blind and forget it
eatonte: hehe
Posted by gwendolyn on April 24, 2002 at 05:34 PM
What have I been doing? Well, over the course of the last week or so I have been to Daytona Beach to burn the midnight oil properly and then sit in good company to watch the sunrise. I have been to Ponce Inlet to revisit the lighthouse. I have been drag racing with a roller hockey mom with our vehicles brimming with screaming children (and monkey too) cheering us on. I have been trying to find more time to do nothing and am spending today downsizing. If you can possibly imagine that I had anything left to get rid of. I have been taking full advantage of my inability to multiply. I have realized I can't make long term commitments or devote my time or energy to anything or anyone beyond my own immediate family and responsibilities. I have also realized that I don't have to. Mostly, I am just hanging out.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 23, 2002 at 02:01 PM
Ladies and gentlemen, thanks to being appointed by Mr. Moon and now acknowledged as such by Mr. Buttonmonkey, I have officially been promoted from Supreme Ruler to Queen of the Fucking Universe. Please take note, send out a memo and update all of your files.
gw3nd0lyn: i am understanding
eatonte: Yes. You are.
gw3nd0lyn: i didn't used to be
gw3nd0lyn: but i am getting better
gw3nd0lyn: but i miss you.
eatonte: :-)
gw3nd0lyn: i have decided though that when you need to be there to work you just do. because when you come home even though you need to be there you are not fun anyway so you might as well just stay there
gw3nd0lyn: so when are you coming home?
eatonte: when you tell me too.
eatonte: I need some new jeans.
gw3nd0lyn: yes. you do.
gw3nd0lyn: you are going to stay there until i tell you to come home?
gw3nd0lyn: does that qualify me as the Supreme Ruler?
eatonte: QFU
eatonte: hehe
gw3nd0lyn: ;)
Posted by gwendolyn on April 16, 2002 at 07:03 PM
Okay, so we are not going anywhere after all. I am going to sit here all day in my bathrobe looking at things I want to buy but can't see wasting money on, and Mr. Monkey is going to draw pictures. The three little monkeys are going to play in their now empty "school room". This is a much better plan then actually going out.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 14, 2002 at 01:01 PM
Yesterday was spent pretty much driving up and down I-95. The trip took about twelve hours, ten of which were spent driving Ferris. If I have to spend ten hours in a car, that is the car to do it in. The Tribe, Ferris, sunshine, and Peter Murphy. Those combined forces make me smile a lot.
Mr. Monkey has decided that we need to go buy him a wet suit and surf board today. That should be very interesting. I wonder where I am supposed to store this surf board in our tiny little apartment. I guess I will just have to get rid of all of his other stuff in the closet like say.....his four airbrushes and all the crap that goes with them, and ummmmmm the big box o' tattooing equipment and flash (not really because he has work to do on me), and perhaps the skateboards and the huge amount of really nice clothes that he has because he refuses to iron unless he absolutely has to so he wears shorts and t-shirts to work. Then we might be able to cram a surf board in there. At least he isn't suggesting we bungie cord it to the roof of my car.
I can't wait until I am 100% back to normal. Yeah, normal for me is such a vague term isn't it? I am getting really tired of not being able to do simple things like vacuum and scrub my floors. Not that I enjoy either of those things, but let's face it, someone has to do it. Soon. I also would like to be able to start working out again. I have a lot of work to do now. I really must get my shit together. I have a very limited wardrobe at the moment. First, I have to get the okay from the doctor. I have no clue how long recovery time is supposed to be for a partial hysterectomy. Way too long.
Posted by gwendolyn on at 11:11 AM
Today has been a long day. Savannah's birthday ceremony went very well. It had been postponed from last week to tonight. I made a lasagna and garlic bread and chocolate cake and ice cream to take over to my friend's house who did all of this for us. We even met some new people who were interested in seeing how this production takes place and got to connect with some people we have been meaning to get together with but hadn't had the opportunity to. It was a lovely evening. Savannah adored it. It is nice when someone cares enough to take the time and put the effort into something like that. Those are the kinds of birthday celebrations I wish I would have had as a little girl. She is so lucky.
It is times like these when I very nearly regret wanting to pack up and move to the woods to become a hermit.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 12, 2002 at 11:17 PM
It completely amazes me how I can go from having a perfectly fine day yesterday with minimal chaos and frustration, to having a completely horrible day today within the first fifteen minutes of being awake. I don't intentionally make things difficult for other people, yet I am constantly put into a position where I have to deal with complicated situations with everyone around me. The more I try to make everyone else happy, the worse the situation usually becomes. These are the days when I want to pack up and head for the woods.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 11, 2002 at 11:58 AM
For those of you that are faint of heart, please close your eyes and quickly move on to the next site in line on your daily reading list. This snippit is for my monkey, who always teases me that I am such a prude but really knows better. I am such a well rounded person.
gw3nd0lyn: you pervert
eatonte: hehe
gw3nd0lyn: i need to call Dr. Z and say "hey doc! when can i start putting my husband more in my vagina and a little less in my mouth?"
gw3nd0lyn: since he is the one who seems to always want to talk about "whoopie"
eatonte: Ha!
Posted by gwendolyn on April 10, 2002 at 11:29 AM
Today my little girl turned five years old. Today she appears to be more of a little lady and less of my sweet little baby. This is a milestone of sorts as she asked me today if now that she is five years old will she be learning to read. In northern states children start Kindergarten at age five. For some children this is the time when they experience going to school for the first time. Other children are already in preschools and such things. For my little girl it doesn't take on that drastic change. I am very grateful for that because I am not ready to let go of her wide eyed innocence that I have done so much to protect. In the state we live in children aren't of legal school age until they are six years old. I used to think this was unfair and unfounded and that the earlier the better. My values and attitude have changed so much. Today I am thankful for both the laws here regarding the legal school age and my choice to homeschool. She will be starting some "Kindergarten" type things this year. She already pretty much figured out how reading works and is very interested in phonics. She knows how to figure out how four plus four works and simple math by counting up objects and fingers. There is very little you can do to keep them babies forever. But she still retains all of the imagination and wonderment that little children her age should have. It is a very sad thing that some little girls her age don't have that. It is also a very sad thing that putting a brick on their head to keep them from growing up doesn't work. Congratulations Savannah Grand you have grown into a very fine little princess! I look forward to our future together and treasure the time we have been blessed with. I love you and Happy Birthday :)
Posted by gwendolyn on April 05, 2002 at 10:20 PM
Today was my first full day with the children on my own again. I should have been ready to get busy with school and all those important matters but I wasn't. I am trying to get our space in order. I can't exactly clean anything yet. I am not supposed to even push the vacuum. I am irritating everyone in the house with my constant sweeping with the broom then begging someone to do the dust pan part. I am still in the midst of turbo donating. The only thing I have left to do is our bedroom closet. Logan helped me so much today with lifting hope and general entertaining of the girls. I am a very lucky mom. I wish now that I had shown my appreciation a little more than I did. Instead, I gave him a load after load of laundry to hang up and got frustrated with him for not being very interested in getting any of it done. As this weekend approaches I find myself not taking the steps I need to get ready. I need to order groceries and get everything for Savannah's birthday ready. I was a lot more mobile today. I probably did a little too much. At any rate I was glad to wake up from my maximum dosage of Extra Strength Tylenol stupor to see Mr. Monkey come home and then I proceeded to wipe that bad mood right out of him. He can't fight my powers. I am Supreme Ruler.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 03, 2002 at 12:33 AM
I have never been so glad in my entire life to have a doctor take a sharp tool and pry metal out of my skin. The staples are out. Even though my stomach feels like heavy sore baggage instead of a part of my torso, I feel much better. The tissue taken from me is now visiting Cleveland. They sent it to some other people at the main hospital there because medical science hasn't figured out what was wrong with it yet. My doctor's exact words to describe what it was like..."extremely bizarre". He did assure me that it was not cancerous. Then I found out that I very nearly bled to death. I didn't realize I was that far gone. I am judging by the hug and seriousness with which he told me how badly I scared him while in that operating room that he wasn't April fooling me.
Posted by gwendolyn on April 01, 2002 at 06:56 PM