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One By One They're Gone

Yeah it’s a big bright beautiful world
Just the other side of the door
Six billion beautiful faces
But I saw them all before…
No this is not about running out on you
Not a case of right or wrong
It’s only that it’s over and done for me
It’s already been and gone
And I don’t want another go around – I don’t want to start again
No I don’t want another go around – I want this to be the end
I want this to be the end – I don’t want to start again
I want this to be the last thing we do
It for me and you…
For all my dreams came true
Yeah I know I should care if you come with me
Yeah and I should care if you go
Really should care about your love or your hate of me
Yeah I should care… but I don’t
And it’s not about giving up on you
It’s not a case of do or die
It’s simply that it’s over and out for me
There’s no more room inside
And I don’t want another run around – I don’t want to start again
No I don’t want another run around – I want this to be the end
I want this to be the end – I don’t want to start again
I want this to be the last thing we do
It for me and you…
Yeah it’s a big bright beautiful world out there
Just the other side of this door
Six billion beautiful faces await
But I saw it all before…
No this is not about running out on you
Not a case of right or wrong
It’s only that it’s over and done for me
It’s already been and gone
And I don’t want another go around – I don’t want to start again
No I don’t want another go around – I want this to be the end
I want this to be the end – I don’t want to start again
I want this to be the last thing we do – this to be it for me and you
This to be the last we go through
this to be the end
For all my dreams came true

Alt.end -The Cure

How very sadly appropriate this morning. I have no more room in my life for heartbreak or sorrow over people who don't care if they hurt me. People who are so caught up in their own self destruction that they can't distinguish between reality and their own fucked up fiction. I never did anything to you. You did it all to yourself. I am sorry I bothered. I really am.

I thought I was trying to save some relationships, ones never obviously never existed in the first place. The bond I thought was there never really was at all. I thought people grew and changed. Obviously I am the only one who has. I keep feeding this need for a family. My family, the one I have been mourning all these years, that doesn't exist. The realization that it never has existed makes me wonder if I am the crazy one. When I said I don't have a home I only half realized how extremely accurate that is. I look at these people and they are all strangers. They are all ghosts from my past life.

Count yourself added to the list of the living dead. I am letting you go. Goodbye.

Posted by gwendolyn on August 11, 2004 at 11:10 AM