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Damned If I Do...

I am so incredibly tired, but I can't get to sleep. I think I just have so much to think about I can't turn my brain off.

News: After several complaints, meetings, and phone conversations with property management here, we are being released from our obligations to fulfill our lease basically because the property management cannot enforce their own property rules therefore due to circumstances supposedly beyond their control they are in breech of their contract. This would be in reference to the neighborhood of asswipes we live with and the fact that we cannot get the police to make people shut the hell up at 4a.m. on any given weeknight, we can't depend on the neighborhood children (or their psycho parents) to act like civilized people long enough to be within three feet of them and the constant feeling of having to be shut up here inside the apartment out of complete disgust for all living creatures within 100 miles of us. However, if we are going to leave we must give 30 days notice. We need to let them know what we are doing next week. This puts a tremendous amount of pressure on us.

I am struggling with the recent decisions to possibly move house outside of this state altogether. As much as I don't really want to go back north, I know that it is in our financial best interests to do so, should it all work out the way it is supposed to with work. That is always the thing with us though. Nothing goes as it is supposed to. That scares me badly. It is if we were trapped in a snow globe and once in awhile something shakes our whole world up. In order to move forward we are going to have to make changes. Drastic ones. Sacrifices even. This may mean moving back to the midwest where cost of living is extremely affordable and we would be able to pay off our debts easily.

Personally, I dread it. The thought of being that close to so much I don't want to be close to makes me feel ill. That must be why I can't sleep. I really wish there were some other option.

Posted by gwendolyn on March 09, 2004 at 12:50 AM