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Food Network Isn't Down With My Struggle

Can someone please explain to me why they don't have a raw food aka living food (un)cooking show on Food Network? It is insane. There are a lot of people in this world who would appreciate some step by step instruction on this topic, namely me. I do think if the (un)cook talked about all of the reasons why raw food is so much better for you, Emeril and Sarah and all of those other people I don't know the names of would be out of a job. Maybe that is why. Still, there needs to be an alternative show where they show you how to get started, how to sprout and dehydrate and juice and make all of these things. I need that guidance and encouragement people. Daily segments would be lovely.

If I lived alone it would be so much easier to just eat nothing but plain raw food. I would undoubtedly live on smoothies and raw guacamole and hummus. I have four other people to convert. I am going to have to get seriously good at disguising nuts and grains and other such things if I want to get them come over to my side from the dark side. Savannah is going to starve to death in this house because she won't eat any veggies raw except carrots and especially not without Ranch to dip them into. She will only eat a couple kinds of fruit. I am going to have to pick my battles there. However, the rest of them are very good about trying new things and I think with a little practice and a lot of begging I could get them to eat more live and less dead food. Then have to be weaned slowly so they don't go into shock. We are currently teetering somewhere in the 70% raw diet and about a 90% vegan diet. That is such a serious improvement over two or three weeks ago. I am happy to hide out here at this level for awhile and gradually everyone will feel better and get over the whole sugar cravings and baked goods withdrawl. Slowly but surely. Logan, my omnivore is going to be the hardest to convince so I am weaning him the slowest from meat. He is having less after-meal tummy aches and stuff too though.

I already feel 150% better. I have not felt this good in two years. In fact, this evening I did a very light version of the exercises I used to do before this whole nightmare of mine started. I was warned by my ET nurse not to be doing sit ups or crunches when I went in to visit her right before Christmas. I looked at her like she was crazy for thinking I could remotely be energetic enough or physically capable of entertaining the idea of a crunch. I mean seriously, do I look like I am doing crunches? Maybe the Nestle's kind.

At the time I didn't get deeply into why she didn't want me to do that but I am absolutely sure it has something to do with the very large scar running down my middle and the smaller but just as ugly scar across the right side, level with my navel. All my stuffing might pop out. I prefer my guts inside not outside (and I have experience with both) so I am going to take that one really easy and give her a call to see what my options might be. In August 2003 I literally popped something (possibly adhesions to the outer layer of skin?) lifting a moving box I shouldn't have and the knot it created internally right below my belly button has finally softened back up so I know for a fact she isn't bluffing. She did say something about still healing, even now.

I figure I can never get rid of the scars of my life (I mean the external ones this time) whether they are surgically or pregnancy induced but hopefully I can and will tone what is inside and maybe detract from the ugliness a little. Maybe squint a lot when I look into the mirror. Right now it doesn't even help to squint. No plastic surgeon in the world could fix my scars, not that I would let anyone come near me again with a scalpel, but I don't have to be all bad. I could deal with a flatter tummy under all those scars. Yeah, your welcome for the visual. We all can't be VS models. Some of us have to have nonelastic scar prone skin genes from their paternal gene pool, three huge belly stretching babies, and be split open like a sack of flour to narrowly escape death.

Anyway, yeah. Despite my sudden bursts of crying over CMT and my lazy cuddling on the sofa with the remote and my laptop today, I am feeling very good. No digestive hell this week. That is worth all the perfect skin in the world. I keep hoping that all of these stories I have read about living foods helping the body to heal itself are really true and that I won't get sick like I have been ever again. We'll see. Everyone send me your good vibes.

The mental kind. You naughty pervs!

Posted by gwendolyn on January 13, 2004 at 01:29 AM