I should report that I have been home since Thursday. It has been a hard few days so I have not been able to update. Lots of pain. Lots of getting used to being home. Lots of tiredness. Lots of bill paying and mail to sort through. It hasn't been as easy as I thought it would be. They basically decided that they had done all they could for me there. They can't operate on me until the three month mark is up for the blood clots in my lungs so they sent me home as soon as I could get the pain under control with something besides Morphine. I barely have. There have been hours of torturous unrelenting pain and hysterical crying and momentary discussion of going back in. I just can't do it to my kids. I would rather lay on the floor and die for three months than disappoint them like that. They won't be able to handle it. There have also been times when I start to think everything might be okay. So now there is nothing to do but pump the Percoset into me on a regular schedule and just wait. I am tired. I am hungry. At least I am home. That makes me very happy despite it all.
Posted by gwendolyn on December 16, 2002 at 09:53 PM