I went to the grocery today and bought all healthy stuff to get my fat ass back in gear. I am totally disgusted with myself again to the point of crying in the dressing rooms at the mall because I hate the way I look in the mirror. I hadn't been down this road for a long time. I don't know how I got so lost. I know I keep saying I am going to do better, but I lied. I have so sucked at the whole thing. I have been eating lots of yummy bad for me stuff and drinking lots of wine and cocoa and scarfing down Godiva every little chance I get. In order to get completely on track I need to really not drink anymore booze. However, I have come back to a point in my life where I feel the urge to drink again. I went through a long period where the sound of it didn't even appeal to me. I am growing very fond of red wine though. So if I get to have a vice that will be it. I think I can even curb this whole Godiva thing. Maybe. I hope. After my canister of Godiva milk chocolate cocoa mix is gone, that is. Bastard Godiva luring me into temptation!
Posted by gwendolyn on October 16, 2002 at 05:01 PM