Have you ever woke up one morning and just really felt strongly that something wasn't right and knew exactly what that thing was and finally just couldn't shove the little voices of dread back down where they came from anymore...today was one of those days. I am sure I disappointed people. I felt kind of sick with dread all day. I don't like being a disappointment. But trying to do something I dread, something I realize I am really am not designed to do, makes me disappointed in myself....more so every day.

People are built differently. I can accept that and I don't want to change anyone including myself. Sometimes it takes really loathing getting up every day to try to be something you're not to make you realize you really are much happier just being who you are.

It is that simple. I am driving to the beach to watch the sunrise tomorrow.

Posted by gwendolyn on July 28, 2001 at 10:23 PM