I just got back from my Mary Kay weekly meeting. I thought of not going tonight because I really haven't done much in the way of working on my business this week but I am glad that I did. As down as I am about it at times, I always like going to the meetings. I am inspired by the encouragement from the other women who all had to start out on the bottom rung of the ladder just like I am, and I am also inspired by their continuous success each week and welcome their tips and advice on how to make things work better for me. I also seem to generate applause and attention each week unexpectedly for things that I have accomplished that I really had sort of forgotten that I had done since I have become so worried about my lack of contacts. I didn't think about the fact that I would be rewarded for the team building I have done over the past couple of weeks. Anyway, I let myself get too discouraged. I am my own worst critic. I want too much too fast and I need to slow down and do the work that it takes to earn it instead of thinking that there are too many factors working against me. Only I can do it. Not my monkey. Not my children. No one but me. I just need to find my groove, what works for some doesn't mean it will work for others. I just give up so so easily.

Posted by gwendolyn on July 10, 2001 at 11:10 PM