I am so excited! I just talked to an old and dear friend from my past. Well, she is not old...our friendship is. It was so neat to hear about her family and everything that is going on in her life and to share mine with her. As we spoke, my mental image of her remained the same as if she were still seventeen years old. Her voice sounded different but I think it was because I don't ever recall us talking on the phone much in the old days. She is one of the sweetest friends I ever had in high school. I am so glad that we finally caught up with each other. She is a successful self-employed businesswoman, wife and, mother. It was a very inspiring conversation.

I am also excited for another reason. I have been debating a way to accomplish my personal and financial goals and had basically come up with no satisfying solution. I have been debating the idea for a couple of month of starting my own business in one form or another to accomplish these goals. By no means are these goals merely financial. Yes, I want money. That is no secret. I want it fast and I want a lot of it. I am pretty persistent when I want something so badly. And in most cases, I am willing to do a lot of things to get it. But there are other issues. My own lonliness and fluxuating self-esteem haunts me daily. I want to be successful in so many ways. I will be the best mother I can be. I will be the best "teacher" I can be. I will be the best wife I can be. And now I just might be the best entrepreneur I can be too.

I also want to meet people. This will also give me a reason to become more sociable and it will make me happy to make other people feel good about themselves. Nothing is set in stone yet. I have to weigh the pros and cons of the time and financial investment. But maybe this is just what I need to fill up some gaps.

Posted by gwendolyn on May 17, 2001 at 02:41 PM